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Bad days. My leg is hurting more than I expected and my ankle is giving me real problems lately. Work… well, work’s being a hell. Sometimes I just wanna cry: I didn’t sign for this!!! And then, I remember that I did.

Writing, on the other hand, isn’t being funny. Too many WIPs –I know –and I feel so guilty for not working on them. Worst thing is that new ideas don’t stop popping like flowers in spring. And there’s this novel in which I’ve been working for two years now and I only have the worldbuilding, and the main plot –and some ridiculous and useless details –but I just keep asking myself if it worth to write it at all. I mean, it isn’t as if it were to be published someday.

Bad vibes these days.

***There’s a monster under my bed. At nights, when lights go out and wind howls outside, and ghosts dance under the stars, it creeps behind me, hugs me with its bonny and cold arms and in a raspy voice, asks me: ‘tell me a children’s tale.’***

Current Mood: depressed

There’re stories that we write just for pleasure and become more, there’re stories that left a mark upon us when they’re meant to be a caprice. I have a lot of those.

It’s been a too long time since I wrote a complete original novel –the last one The Light-Bearer, I think –so, I’m gonna talk about fanfiction only.

Quill and Steel. Chronicles of a rebellion. This one is one of my faves. Besides the ‘angels’ allegories’ with the wings and the rebellion (I… know), I’m still surprised about how I got to use a language almost grandiloquent, with rhythm and poetry. No, you don’t get to ‘see’ it in English ‘cos my English sucks; but in Spanish it is f*cking gorgeous, though it’s me telling it.

A star in the night. Besides the title from my favorite Blind Guardian’s song, Time Stands Still (at the Iron Hill), that sings Fingolfin’s battle against Morgoth and his death, this particular fic became more that I thought at the beginning. From a singular idea about Fëanor being deceived by Morgoth and Sauron for him becoming an Angband’s captain and feeling lust for Morgoth’s slave (Fingolfin, o.c.), this story ended almost as its own verse. I even played with the idea that Faenar was not the real Fëanáro, but an invention, a copy, made by Sauron, from the remnants of Fëanáro’s soul and the silmarils. In the end, I went for the *happy end*.

Misadventures of a monster. A midnight inspiration. I woke up to write a tweet and I ended with a whole verse (you just give me a finger and I’ll make you a complete universe in two hours: that’s my only talent in the world. And it’s useless.) From a children’s story (almost) I went to a wedding night between a human and a monster –the kind of monster that lives in your dresser or under your bed. Except that someone made a mistake this time and sent a nightmares’ commander to take care of a child. There’s no underage: I have… certain lines I don’t cross even in fiction.

(Thinking about this one, I have a weakness for evil creatures. Even my main characters are always past the line between good and evil. I don’t know: the Chaos, a traitor, Lucifer, a murderer, a criminal, a demon, the end of the world, a cursed demon prince, an avenger, a monster…)

The Moon behind the Glass. The origin of this particular telenovela omegaverse was me hating genderbender’s fics. Ok, I respect everyone’s works and choices, I just don’t like the idea of my beautiful boys becoming girls –or my Haleth becoming a strong man, oh no, sir, I won’t tolerate you destroy my most beautiful het ship and the first one from my Silmarillion’s night readings). Well, The Moon… is not from Silm’s fandom, it’s Modao’s. I wanted to write a typical love comedy with cheating in the night before the wedding, and unwanted pregnancy and love with a wonderful child included. What was amazing about this particular story is how people love to read about a woman –or omega, more exactly –being a single mother and convenience marriage becoming a love story. As I said, a telenovela. But, I enjoyed writing it –probably because the songs I used for the chapters.

And… I’m gonna leave it here and come back to write sexy times between my favorites elves – they have too few happiness left before world changes. Yes, I’m talking about Dance of Swords, another one that began as a caprice and has become its own verse and canon.

PS: sometimes, when you write erotica, don’t you feel like you’re writing some kind of anatomy essay? Or it’s just me? Don’t mind me.

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Current Mood: thoughtful

So, my laptop is 'almost' dead, so writing is an impossible task right now - at least until I know how serious the issue is. Meanwhile I do foolish things not to think about the loss. These 'foolish things'.

Imagen con preguntas sobre fics

1- 1- Lumeriel –I’m Lumeriel everywhere.

2- 2- Fëanor/Fingolfin (Tolkien); Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao (MXTX-MDZS); Caranthir/Haleth (Tolkien); Jiang Cheng/Lan JingYi (MXTX-MDZS); Wen RuoHan/Jiang FengMian(MXTX-MDZS); Shi WuDu/Shi QinXuan(MXTX-TGCF) and other minor ships.

3- 3- Almost the same above, plus Gil-Galad/Elrond; Maedhros/Fingon; Melkor/Sauron; Wen Ning/Wen Zhuliu; Lan Sizhui/Lan JingYi…

4- 4- When I was 9yo.

5- 5- Haha! A fic from The Nibelungs. I was… 9yo? I burned it.

6- 6- This is hard: Two Shores of the lake, I guess. And Weakness. And ‘In this life… meow!’

7- 7- Crown Jewel maybe?

8- 8- Paradise’s Flowers and Dance of Swords -right now my most ambitious WIP.

9- 9- Can’t chose, ok? I love them all. But ‘A star in the night’ and ‘The Prince and the Dragon’ are really important to me.

10- 10- Lovers to Enemies to Lovers.

11- 11- Explicit mpreg.

12- 12- ?

13- 13- Songs, a conversation, a thread, a painting, a movie…

14- 14- ?

15- 15- Shi Wudu as Nicholas Long and Jin GuangYao as a cat. Nie MingJue as a monster! Fingolfin in Two Shores of the lake and Fëanor in ‘A star in the night’.

16- 16- A King’s Bride, second part of Two Shores of the lake, with Gil-galad/Curufin and Caranthir/Haleth as main ships.

17- 17- There are so many. I have this Cinderella’s version with Turgon/Maeglin, The Little Mermaid’s version with Gil-galad/Elrond; Rapunzel with Fëanor/Fingolfin; Dance of Swords –that almost no one is reading – my originals –that none reads: Children of Gaia; Songs of Satahra; Lightbearer: the road to Gehenna; Warrior Moon; Rubies over black velvet; Broken wings…

18- 18- ‘Tus hijos devorarán a tus hijos. ‘ –‘your children will devour your children’

19- 19- ?

20- 20- I kála hendelyato. By now, I’m pretty sure I’ll never finish it.

21- 21- Hoho! A bunch! Tolkien’s fandom: Spiced_wine; Kalendeer; SpaceWall; Oshun; starlightwalking, soulmate923, Fade_into_the_west; MXTX’s fandom: GoldenVendetta, clockwockspider, rosehoney, Wen_Ruonhandled, silverneko, ScarLetRose, Belisama, Ariz_Knight, Alientodetinta…

22- 22- Here comes the sun nanana… okey, no. Well, big series and verse and amazing worldbuilding: Dark Prince’s verse, by Spiced_wine; treacherous depths, by rosehoney; Scarred, by soulmate923, anything by GoldenVendetta; Underground treasure, by ScarLetRose.

Current Mood: depressed

I've seen this on two people already so I decided to entertain myself a bit.

1-Noli me tangere (Silmarillion; Fëanor/Fingolfin, post-canon, Reincarnation, AU)

2-My destiny… our destiny (TGCF, Chinese novel, Shi WuDu/Shi QingXuan, post-canon, reincarnation, Modern AU)

3-In this life… meow! (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao, post-canon, Reincarnation in a cat, Modern AU)

4-Beautiful creatures (Silmarillion, Fëanor/Fingolfin, Fairytales AU, Pinocchio/Pygmalion Myth; sci fi)

5-World can wait (Dr. Stone; Ishigami Senkuu/Shishiou Tsukasa; Canon Divergence)

6-I can’t give you my friendship… (The Goblin Emperor; Deret Beshelar/Maia Drazhar)

7-Lotus feet (TGCF, Chinese novel, Hua Cheng/Xie Lian; Missing Scene; Foot kissing)

8-Caresses of Ink and Steel (Silmarillion, Turgon/Maeglin; Steampunk)

9-Misadventures of a monster (MDZS, Chinese novel; Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao; Monsters and Magic AU; Interspecies romance)

10-Quill and Steel. Chronicles of a rebellion (Silmarillion, Fëanor/Fingolfin, Winged Elves AU; Body Modification)

11-Flowers for a peony (MDZS, Chinese novel; Jin GuangYao; Birthday gifts)

12-One light… for my only love (TGCF, Chinese novel, Shi WuDu/Shi QingXuan, post-canon, Mourning)

13-La cinta roja (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao; Canon Divergence; Fix-it)

14-As it always should have been (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao, post-canon)

15-You’re gonna remember my name (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao, BigCats-AU, Animal Traits)

16-Delicatessen (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao; Modern AU; Private Dancer)

17-Moments to collect (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao; Modern AU; Photographs)

18-Tiantáng zhi hua (Paradise’s Flowers) (MDZS, Chinese novel, Nie MingJue/Jin GuangYao; A/B/O)

19-The Prince and the Dragon (Silmarillion, Fëanor/Fingolfin, Fairytales AU, Beauty and the Beast/Eros and Psyche Myth)

20-I’ll kiss the sin in thy lips, o dear brother of mine (Silmarillion, Fëanor/Fingolfin; AU; Shakespeare’s quotes)

I’m leaving out Original Works and Spanish versions of these same works.

1.How many are you happy with? All but ‘My destiny… our destiny’. Although this title refers to the most forceful phrase said by Shi Wudu in the novel, it does not convince me and I will not change it now that it is already in the last third.

2. How many are ... not great? Three. Including the previous one.

3. How many did you scramble for at the last minute? Those three.

4. How many did you know before you started writing/creating, or near the beginning? Almost all of them.

5. How many are quotes from songs or poems? Directly? One: ‘You're gonna remember my name’, from Fame, by Irene Cara.

6. How many are other quotes? ‘I’ll kiss the sin in thy lips, o dear brother of mine’ is a reference to Romeo and Juliet.
‘Noli me tangere’, from the Bible.

7. Which best reflects the plot of the story/content of the fanwork? ‘In this life…meow’, since the villain is reincarnated in a cat and…

‘One light… for my only love’ refers to the Chinese tradition of lighting lanterns to honor the gods and it's about that particular Festival that turns history.

8. Which best reflects the theme of the story? ‘Misadventures of a monster’ – all Nie MingJue’s misadventures when his mission is to be the monster of a too small and damaged kid, and how he ends up falling in love with his designee through the years.

‘The Prince and the Dragon’-It’s a Beauty and the Beast retelling.

9. Which best reflects the character voice of the story/POV of the fanwork? 'In this life…meow' –It took my heart and more to write from the point of view of a cat - luckily I have five advisers.

10. Which is your favourite title? ‘Quill and Steel. Chronicles of a Rebellion’. It sounds ... pretentious. And I like it. I like titles that taste a little ... epic? Also, I always knew it ended with steel wings.

I admit it: I work on too many projects at once.

It has always been this way, since I started writing at the age of 9 - it will be for that reason that throughout my life I have only finished about twenty novels. No, I do not recommend them: most of them were written by a 15-18 year old girl with little -tending to zero- erotic experience ... and they *were* erotic novels.

But right now, I'm on a project that brings me headlong: I've never written trans characters and ... I'm going to try.

Worse: the real motivation for writing this story is to dress Fingolfin as a woman and give him a feminine name.

No, Fingolfin is not trans in the fic. Other characters are. Glorfindel...

now I spend more time doing research than writing; but at least I am learning to use photoshop for images. (If you have any doubts: yes, I am a mess with technology and the internet. I don't know how to use almost any application and I hardly know how to orient myself on websites)